Wandering in my mind

On Wednesday this past week, the feeding tube was installed. So no more fighting to choke liquids down. Just push them in with a huge syringe. Easy peasy. Four times a day. They even feel I might just gain a little weight back, which would be nice.

Otherwise, things haven't changed much for me, and my days continue to pass. How's it for you?

First, a thank you to Puffy, Lasann and Nookie for reminding me that there is a bigger world out there than what I am dealing with. I have allowed my world to become bordered by the four walls of the house and have not been doing too much else. I am no longer driving, and find that even a trip to town for a few errands with a driver is so very tiring and then takes a day to get over. So in withdrawing, I allowed myself to become a little isolated and self centered. But now I am back.

Tell me—if you were on a liquid diet of Boost meal replacement, what food do you think you would miss the most? Oddly enough, I have had dreams of eating a roast chicken bun with lots of mayo. The other dream was chicken fingers and Caesar salad. Of all the foods out there, you would think I might dream of something fancier, but apparently not.

Oldest DD has moved three hours away with her boyfriend, and is taking courses to become a nurse. She seems happy, so it’s a good thing. She did take her little black cat with her at first, but being alone all day after 10 months of living with someone at home made him very lonely, on top of having to become an inside cat in the new place. So she decided Miles should come back to live with me and she would get a youngster who did not know the outside. I have to admit, I was glad to get the little beggar back home, and he seemed happy to be back.

DH called me from work this afternoon to say that where they are working in Calgary, there were some snow flakes drifting about. I’m thinking this is a little too early for me, but I’d better call the propane company and order the tank be filled.

I go to see my oncologist next Tuesday, so I guess I will find out how things are progressing at this point. I will try to update after to share my findings. Hope you are all well out there, and enjoy this great big beautiful world.

The whole famn damily just after the grand march at graduation. So now DD only has a couple weeks of school and her finals to be totally graduated. My mom flew out (the first time in her almost 84 years that she has been on a plane - and that took a little convincing)and we were all at the cap and gown ceremony in the morning at 10. But mom was a little too tires to attend the evening program, so the rest of us attended. With 133 in her graduating class things took a while, but eventually we got through. The class did a demonstration waltz to the Blue Danube after the Grande March, then grads had a dance with one of their parents, then there was a short dance for the rest of the evening. Then the buses came and those who were attending the safe grad party left for the evening debauchery. We picked them up at 6 the next morning and took them home to sleep it off.

And I have to admit, during the cap and gown ceremony, when they announced DD, daughter of and gave our names, as DD walked onto the stage, I cried. Now she just has to do something with the rest of her life!

One down, one to go.

Well, Easter was definately not what I expected. We ended up having our dinner yesterday, Monday, after DH picked me up and brought me home from Calgary. It all started Friday, when I started to bleed from the throat. Not the most pleasant so Saturday we ended up at emergency, and, if you can believe it, they called the Stars Air Ambulance to take me to the city. Some kind of overkill, really, I thought. As a result I spent Sunday lying still for 3 and a half hours while an angioplasty was done on the bood vessels in my throat, basically tying off all the smaller ones so they can't do that again. At least the big vessel didn't seem to be involved, thank goodness. After those hours, because they go in through your artery in your groin, I had to then lay still for another four hours to allow the artery to seal. So it was a very quiet day.

I'm just so glad we have the level of medical treatment we do, and so very very glad to be home again.

Happy Easter

Gopher poop I tell ya. Not only does the little rotter have the nerve to have dug a tunnel under my doorstep, but it is using the step as a spot to stand and watch for danger. Whistling on my doorstep and pooping all over it. Man do those little buggers poop a lot. DH has been given the job of gopher patrol and is supposed to look after it. The only good gopher is a dead gopher, at least when it comes to my doorstep.

I’m looking out the window. Does it look like spring to you? It looks like spring to me! If the inevitable happens and we get a spring snow storm, it won’t be so bad, cause IT’S SPRING!

Youngest DD and I spend an hour sitting on the side of the road waiting for AMA to show up. As we were driving home, I began to feel like my car was tilting to the right and, no sooner did I think that, than the right rear tire blew out. So I pulled over and debated the wisdom of getting out in the mud and changing the tire and decided a man in coveralls being paid to do it was the best option. There was hardly anything left of the tire, it was so shredded. Good thing I got the warranty protection when I bought this set as it only cost me $20 each for two new tires (the garage wanted to keep them in matched pairs) so the original $5 charge saved me another $80 per tire. Good deal.

The graduation dress for older DD arrived, and when she tried it on, I cried. She looks so grown and adult. Then she opened her mouth and ruined the whole effect. I will only have to do a minor adjustment on the top, once she gets the right bra to wear with it, so I am considering myself lucky.

I am tossing out some cans of cat food I had in the cupboard. They aren’t on the recall list, but they are one of the brands made by the company that has the bad food. The peace of mind is better if I just chuck it and stick to Meow Mix dry. No canned treats for them right now. I feel so bad for those folks who have lost their pets to this mess.

I hope you’re all well, and I am reading your blogs, just not commenting of late. Love to all.

A sweet and cheery day to all on this February 14th. I can't believe how the days get away from me - I don't even seem to notice them passing. I am reading your blogs, I just don't seem to be able to get through them and comment as well. A lot of that has to do with stinking dial up internet - it just takes so long to do anything.

Overall I am feeling well, and I hope you are too. While we are in a small deep freeze weather wise just now, it does not compare to the weather I see occuring in eastern Canada and the States! Hope you are all keeping warm!

Lately I started reading the Dark Hunter series of novels by Sherrilyn Kenyon so I have been snuggling under my special blanket a lot and feeling really decadent.

Once more, Happy Valentine's Day.