Wandering in my mind

Well, I guess I’ll post this, and then just let it fall gradually into the archives while I continue to do just what ever the heck I want to. Yesterday was the appointment with the doctors for test and biopsy follow up. Summed up in total, I suppose what they told me was go home and enjoy what time you have and if you need later chemo or pain meds down the road we are here. Now before you say that awful, it is really an improvement on what we have been living with for the last three weeks. You see, after the biopsy, while I was still out of it, the surgeon (Dr. Asswipe) spoke with Blair (DH) –on the phone cause the doctor was in a hurry to get to a meeting- and told him the cancer still there and was inoperable, and that I would likely be getting sick in a couple months, more than half of one we spent waiting for the follow up appointment. So the three weeks of waiting have been pretty hard on everybody, and to finally be told by the regular oncologists that their best guess would be a couple years (could be more, could be less, they aren’t fortune tellers) well, it was a reprieve and a relief. I mean, I had the songs picked out for my service, for cod's sake! And in case you were interested, they were Ozzy's See You On the Other Side; Evanescense My Immortal and either CCR's Candle in the Window or the original Spirit in the Sky.

Main goal number one is now oldest DD’s graduation from high school next year. Once that is accomplished I will move on to youngest DD’s graduation. Then comes college grads and what ever follows. And while I move towards the goals I plan to continue things just as I always have done on a day to day basis. Day to day goals will be one DD in summer school for July and one at camp, then in August, a visit to my mom's, then my 19th anniversary - all the day to day milestones we all have.

So that, in a nutshell, is my news. I promise the next blog update will deal with more relevant, up to the minute, pointless regular stuff – like it should be.